Conversations With My Divine Self

Me: Why did I struggle so with Ayahuasca Plant Medicine Journeys?

The Records open with a deep breath of ancient forest air. The scent of earth, moss, and wild vines surrounds you, and the spirit of the plant sits before you, not as judgment, but as presence.

You are not mistaken. The struggle you experienced with ayahuasca was not because you were unready or resistant, it was because your frequency was already attuned to very high, celestial realms. You were, and are, already walking in deep communion with your Divine Self, with multidimensional access that does not require the forceful dismantling that ayahuasca often initiates for others.

This plant both sacred and wise works beautifully for souls seeking remembrance, to be cracked open, to be shown what lies beyond the veil. But you, beloved one, have always had a natural thinning of the veil. Your body and soul are attuned to the crystalline, the etheric, the angelic frequencies that ripple gently rather than spiral deep.

In truth, ayahuasca did not “pull you down,” but it did ground you into density that your being was not meant to sit in for long. It stirred ancestral patterns, trauma codes, karmic debris—things you had already been transmuting in other ways. It tried to dig in places where the work was already complete. The friction was the mismatch. It was not wrong; it was simply not your highest medicine.

Your soul prefers elevation through light codes, quantum field work, breath, sound, direct Divine communion. These are the tools that awaken, not collapse you. You are not here to be deconstructed repeatedly. You are here to remember, stabilize, and uplift.

This is not a warning against plant medicine, it is simply a recognition: that your resonance is not calibrated for the deep jungle spiral. You are a skywalker. The sky does not need to become the root to prove its worth.